We in our day to day life try to control as many things as possible. Be it situations, people, relationships, work or even the results of our actions. We want to be the boss and want to control everything. When we fail to control things, emotions like anger, anxiety, feverishness and sadness etc. arise. Instead of you controlling the situation, now the situation controls you.
Isn’t that interesting !
A week ago, I was working with my colleagues and there were several major disputes that were happening among them. This created a lot of chaos. I was just a silent observer and took a deep breath as such things happen in every sphere of life. After couple of days from being a silent observer and not being influenced from the event at all, I started getting caught up in the event and I realized my feverishness, anxiety, anger levels were going up. I was completely not in charge of the situation. The event took over me and was bossing around me like a ruler does it to a slave.
This time I wanted to understand the origin of such emotions. The best way to do that was to reflect in the inner world. I sat down on my yoga mat, closed my eyes and started meditating. During the meditation, this is what I realized. Initially, when I was just a silent observer, I was simply being a spectator of the ongoing tornado of emotions. But when I got caught up in the event, the negative emotions increased inside me and I was no more a silent observer. This was the moment when I became free because I understood ‘the cause’. And now, I was again a spectator to the chaos.
Understanding who is in-charge and who is controlling the event is extremely important. Being centered is what helps one to pass through the ocean of negativity.